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Created on 2007-03-09 23:11:38 (#12463400), last updated 2008-02-10
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BioMostly all lyrics put together to created a real about me [They can write it better then I ever felt it]
I’m on homebound schooling till the end of this school year, you probable think it’s great, because I get to sport the fashion of waking up at four in the afternoon and stay up till four a clock in the fucking morning and I only have do little work, but I’m not ashamed of bad habits that I’m forming. But what will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems? I look in the mirror, and don’t like what I see. I choke back tears and keep telling myself that "This is the life I love to lead". I’m so sick of being tried and so tried of being sick, and I’m already on a first name basis with all the top physicians and they’re the ones that prescribe pills that try to make this town feel ok. I know I should take it a day at a time but everyone wants my to look into the future, but my eyesight is going bad, and this crystal ball is, always cloudy except for when you look into the past. There’s a world outside my door that gets off on me being down. But at times this bedroom feel more like a tomb so make my bed the grave and shovel dirt onto my sheets, as my therapists pump though my speakers taking all my problems a mile way away and singing me to sleep. Maybe the problem is me but I’ll blame everyone but me for this mess, including my friends and family but they can make my life so complicated. But I know my friends are the best cause we like the same kind of music and we couldn't stand being normal and we all laugh, at the most random situations. I never want to let them down or have you go, its better off this way. I'm casually obsessed, and I've forgiven death, I am indifferent yet I am a total wreck, I'm almost every cliché, but I simply do it best. Most of the time I keep life a mystery but I provide, the clues so the rest is up to you and don't forget to check the obvious. So I guess it all comes down to how curious you can be. And when I feel like my brain is bursting out of my head, is when the lies just won’t stop slipping and maybe when I’ll find it hard to stay, with the words you say “let me in”. But I’ll just think happy thoughts and I’ll be okay trust me.
I’m on homebound schooling till the end of this school year, you probable think it’s great, because I get to sport the fashion of waking up at four in the afternoon and stay up till four a clock in the fucking morning and I only have do little work, but I’m not ashamed of bad habits that I’m forming. But what will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems? I look in the mirror, and don’t like what I see. I choke back tears and keep telling myself that "This is the life I love to lead". I’m so sick of being tried and so tried of being sick, and I’m already on a first name basis with all the top physicians and they’re the ones that prescribe pills that try to make this town feel ok. I know I should take it a day at a time but everyone wants my to look into the future, but my eyesight is going bad, and this crystal ball is, always cloudy except for when you look into the past. There’s a world outside my door that gets off on me being down. But at times this bedroom feel more like a tomb so make my bed the grave and shovel dirt onto my sheets, as my therapists pump though my speakers taking all my problems a mile way away and singing me to sleep. Maybe the problem is me but I’ll blame everyone but me for this mess, including my friends and family but they can make my life so complicated. But I know my friends are the best cause we like the same kind of music and we couldn't stand being normal and we all laugh, at the most random situations. I never want to let them down or have you go, its better off this way. I'm casually obsessed, and I've forgiven death, I am indifferent yet I am a total wreck, I'm almost every cliché, but I simply do it best. Most of the time I keep life a mystery but I provide, the clues so the rest is up to you and don't forget to check the obvious. So I guess it all comes down to how curious you can be. And when I feel like my brain is bursting out of my head, is when the lies just won’t stop slipping and maybe when I’ll find it hard to stay, with the words you say “let me in”. But I’ll just think happy thoughts and I’ll be okay trust me.
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